You are afraid of something that scares the hell out of you.
The new feelings that are trying to surface overwhelms something within.
It is an unusual tinge of happiness you never felt before.
A possibility of something amazing that you’re trying to deny.
You are afraid of the sudden cracks on your lips.
An insufferable grin you just can’t do away with.
Your words could deflect the spark in your eyes,
But never not the language that it gives out.
You are afraid of the thoughts running round your head.
The constant replay of vivid images.
Such a dream and a nightmare of a wakened soul.
A scenery that stir emotions but you’re shaking it off.
You are afraid of the “what if’s” and the “how’s,”
Surely tempted to dive in yet you somehow hold back.
You fear who you’ve become because of your past.
And you can’t step both feet because of self-doubt.
A rough decision it is.
You’re torn between possibilities and regrets.
You had been living it good before those complications came.
But thoughts about it, the butterflies you feel, it’s just never the same.
You are scared of something that could change your life.
You are scared of losing someone.
You are not just ready for disappointments.
But you know what?
We might never be.
So just embrace the uncertainties and take the risk.
Sometimes, you do not have to wait to be brave.
You just gotta do it afraid.
Happiness is about momentum. You cannot have it all the time. -Z
Lacuna 